This one encounter changed my whole life and started the process of forgiving the people who had hurt me over the years. I reached a point where I believed I had forgiven them and I was free.
I’m at the moment going through Gods testing and probing to see if my motives are pure. I’m questioning if my heart is right and if I have put my trust completely in God for the next year.
I’m reflecting that I was in Indonesia this time last year and following there Christmas traditions, I must admit I like the weather in Indonesia better but, there is nothing better than being home for Christmas. I’ve managed to see my family and share what the last year has brought which is why I’m thankful.
“It is only as we see His holiness, His absolute purity and moral hatred of sin, that we will be gripped by the awfulness of sin against the Holy God.” The Pursuit of Holiness – Jerry Bridges.
I’ve spent the last few days at a loose end, I’ve finished work and I have a few weeks till I start a new venture so I’ve been thinking. Which, is dangerous I know! but, I thought about all the things I say. I think about all the times I wake up after a great nights sleep to less than a hour later say “I am tired” and guess what I’m yawning later feeling really exhausted. I also have the tendency to say “I am clumsy” which then follows by me tripping or dropping something. I also say a lot of other things which are not always true but have become a habit that I have picked up over the years.
I must confess I love movies, I have spent a lot of my life watching movies. I love to check out the actors, see what they’ve been in before and you know just enjoy the story. I recently watched Jerry Maguire, what can I say I like Tom Cruise and Renée Zellweger in the 1996 classic I still remember the first time I watched as a teenager. The scene where Jerry is confessing his love to Dorothy “I love you, you complete me.” Wow! But what follows is the iconic line “you had me at hello!” Teenage heart forever changed by a rom-com’s take on love that is never quite obtainable.
I’ve always been a person that looks on the glass half full side of life, I own a pair of rose-coloured glasses and I always try to find the best in people even when its hard.